A cluster of white structures cling to the face of a cliff
with all its strength.
This was the first image I saw when I googled Bhutan for the
first time twelve months ago.
I catch my first real life glimpse of the nest through the
cab window. The high noon sun cast such a glare that I had to roll down the
glass and squint my eyes to be sure of what I was seeing. From so far away it
looked like a white patch painted onto the cliff—there was no dimension to it,
nothing 3-D. As we neared, the structure began to take shape, growing out of
the rock. Impossible is all I could
think as I stood at the base of the mountain, looking straight up. You know
that its muscles must be trembling from exertion; a battle to the death being
waged inside its walls. Yet on the outside it remains poised and collected as
if the fight with gravity isn’t happening at all. I was surprised by the unassuming nature of
its splendor—had I unconsciously attributed the qualities of vanity and
superiority that so often come with fame to a building?
"Walk to Guru's Glory! Bring back memories of a Kingdom, for here in this Kingdom rules an unparalleled benevolent King." |
We walk slowly up hill feeling sorry for those
tourists that, due to strict time constraints, have to climb this mountain
within hours of arriving on the plane. Jingle bells floating on the wind bring
warning of the approaching herd of pack ponies at fast trot, sending up plumes
of dust. They pass us in fast moving single file, compact little train cars
barreling down the mountain, barely clinging to the track. Decorated with big
tassels hanging from their bridals and little bells under their chins, the
oranges, golds and reds of their goh striped
pack pads compliment their furry brown
bodies.
plane leaving Paro airport |
Thick forests provide welcome shade from the afternoon heat
and a fresh gust of wind now carries the sing-song voice of a man running down
the trail chasing the indecipherable words of his mantra. Long delicate strands
of sage colored lichen blow elegantly in the musical breeze, suspended from the
spindly branches of sliver fir trees. Emerging from the forest we reach the postcard viewpoint on the ridge directly in front of the 800 meter cliff and stand
breathless. Impossible.
Tiny figures can be seen crawling around inside the
monastery like little ants dressed in goh
and kira. Long strings of prayer
flags drape across the wide gap between the two ridges; one end is tied to a
rock and thrown across to the opposite point, but even knowing this I still
cannot imagine how they came to bridge such a vast expanse.
photo: mrc |
a little love for Brazil in Bhutan |
We take sweet time admiring the structures at a distance,
taking hundreds of photographs of both the monastery and the crowds of people
leaving the monastery, hiking back up the gully we are now descending. By the
time we reach the entrance we are told that the lhakhang is closed from 1-2pm for lunch. A flash of frustration
washes over me, evaporated moments later by a small kitten I find basking in the
sun. I pick him up and he reluctantly lets me cradle him in my arms. This
attracts several little kids and we are soon surrounded by the entire family
all wanting to touch my little pet. We hand our camera to one of the fathers
for him to take a photo. After lots of laughs and “1, 2, 3’s,” the family
departs. When we look back to see the pictures there is nothing. He managed to
not take a single photo of our brief friendship.
filling butter lamps |
photo: mrc |
We eat a snack and seek shelter from the wind. An hour later
we are allowed to enter.
It is so quiet inside. With the morning crowds gone, the
afternoon is reserved for those who like to take their time. Perhaps these five
months in Bhutan have slowed my pace, calming the constant sense of urgency to get there.
mrc |
A freshly whitewashed stone staircase curves gently toward
an archway drowned in light. Potbellied clay pots planted with fake red
flowers alight each step. Never has a plastic flower looked more elegant. There are some real
flowers too, rebelling against the winter. We enter the first two temples
alone. The wide planked floors are soft and smooth from centuries of shuffling
feet. Indentations are worn into the boards in front of the central deities, carved
by hundreds of thousands of bodies bowing in prostration. The cold wood, shiny
drapes and colorful wall paintings are bathed in gold dust, our movements
sending spirals of glitter in the air.
Back outside and up another level I spot a cloaked door with
a little sign beside it saying, “Tiger’s Lair.” Inside is a dark crevice with
three ladders going down to a bottom that couldn’t be seen. I’m not sure if I’m
supposed to be here or not. It seems a little sketchy to be open to the public,
but there was no one around to tell me no so I started climbing down. I hate
ladders so my heart, already accelerated from the adrenalin of possibly getting
caught, is in my throat. I almost went back several times but my curiosity won
the internal battle and at the bottom I was certain I had reached a place that
most people don’t get to see.
A small alter glows in the light of a single candle at the
deepest corner of the cave. I make a tiny prostration in the cramped temple. At
the other end sunlight breaks through the darkness and my curiosity takes
charge again. Squeezing through two big rocks I lean out. I’m looking straight
down the sheer face of the cliff. Nothing below me but the black and tan
streaked rock and a thick forest of trees a long, long way down. I get that
roller coaster feeling in my stomach. I manage one quick glimpse up and see a
corner of the monastery hanging even farther out from the wall than I was. Yep,
definitely not supposed to be here.
Climbing back up the ladders is much less scary than
sticking your head out of a crack in a cliff wall.
Two Bhutanese families have gathered in the small courtyard.
Sheltered from the wind, the space feels warm and comforting, making you forget
that you’re inside a structure anchored to the face of a cliff. Until you look
up and see another 300 meters of mountain towering above you.
Everyone climbs the final staircase together, bare feet
making soft pitter-patter noises on the cold stones. There are at least twelve
people crowded into the little temple; all moving in a ripple of prostrations,
up and down, each to the rhythm of their own incantations. Small painted Buddhas
line the walls, hundreds of them, all the same but not one identical. The
family leaves and I linger by the window. Looking down all I can see is a
tangle of trees and I realize that this is the corner I saw jutting out above
the cave.
I step slowly back towards the doorway and join the families
in the last temple. It is an intimate moment to share, bowing in front of a
shrine in one of most sacred sites in a country revered for its sacredness. I
feel honored to be in the presence of these people from generations both
younger and older than mine, from lives so different from mine, in a place so
far from my home. But in that small room the differences didn’t seem so big.
Everything that happened in our individual lives so distant from one another
had brought us all to the same place at the very same moment. Everything we had
been through led us to this exact point and this exact time. The chances of it
seem impossible.
meditation hut outside Taktsang entrance. I had to explore it, of course |
The lighting was glorious as we began the hike back down. We took a lot of photos...
photo: mrc |
*This piece written for publication in Kuzuzanpo-la, Bhutan Air's in-flight magazine.
as always you take my breath away !!!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful! Your words painted an image that the images brought to life. What an amazing place.
ReplyDeleteAmazing!!! Everything!!! You´re shining... <3
ReplyDelete